to "MY PERSON".........

if you are really lucky in life, you find the one person in your life who you share everything with! now i know many of you would say my parents or my husband or my boyfriend or my best friend yada, yada, yada............but now many of you can say i have so many people who i can just pick up the phone to call that the fingers on one hand arent enough?!

i am one of those very few lucky ones.....of course, they are relative degrees of intimacy with each of them that are completely different!....but the most important fact is that they are there....no matter what!!.....now at this point i would like to point out that i do consider my parents very close to me......that is a relation that no one can take away from any of us......but there are things that even the closest child-parent refrain from sharing........the thing is that at the end of it all they are your "parents"........no matter what; there is stuff that you do end up hiding from them.....because lets face it, it is better for them if they don't find out some of the things that we do!!

now, as lucky as i am to have many such people who are just a call away who listen to my neurotic, idiotic, insane problems and offer sensible and very often, calming suggestions........there has been one constant person who i bother, irritate, confide and talk to for the past couple of years! i call her "MY PERSON"...........i often tell her "you are me and i am you"..........as ridiculously romantic as that sounds, it is true!! and i often wonder if we are actually one soul, put into two different bodies?! ok, corny.......i shall stop now!!

actually, simply put, she is my "SOULMATE"..............if it weren't so weird and gross i would have married her! not because she is a girl(because i am totally down with that! ;) ) it is because she is my cousin!!............damn, that should actually make things easier.........we did once talk about the alternate reality of what would happen if we were lovahs and got married!!...........jeez, you would think this would be the extent of the utter insanity of our talks..........you would be wrong, i do vaguely recall us arguing about which one of us would carry our child!! actually, we are pretty certain neither of our parents would be THAT surprised......they know how much we mean to each other..........and that we live in our own little world!! and ignore(to put it lightly)....alright, just forget the existence of everyone around us when we are together!! I mean, even after talking about literally every single topic in the world, we would still find something more to talk about!

to even try to explain our relationship is like trying to figuring out the every reason of human existence!.....if you think that was a melodramatic, you should listen to our conversations........sex and the city would appear pointless when compared to amount of topics that get discussed when we are in one of our "mood"............i guess our relation was ingrained in our very being!!........granted it took a while for us to get to this level of emotional, mental and psychological understanding........but when it did, it was like how come we did know each other like this before??! It was sooo obvious!!.....duhhh.......

it isnt just going to each other with our respective problems or lending a ear........it was understanding, knowing exactly what the other was feeling, going through,........and caring.......caring enough to try your level best to try to help them out..........the fact that we are related, have blood relation and have her mom and my dad be sis-bro and her dad and my dad as besties, i guess made us draw even closer than ever!! Surviving our parents hysterionics while trying to learn how to live a "normal" life while figuring out how to deal with the many curve-balls that life throws at you.........just some of the many things that made us realize how alike we are, how much we learn from each other (me learning a lot more from her!), how much more shit we have to face in the future, how bloody impossible it would have been to deal with all of this if it weren't for each other...........the thing is i could go on and on.......but it is absolutely impossible to describe how much she means to me and how much i depend on her to survive on a day-to-day basis!!..............so, in the most basic terms.........

i simply, plainly, unequivocally without any question or any reason LOVE HER! <3